They synergy of our energy
Is breath-taking
I stand in awe of who we’ve become
It’s a way of being that is beyond
The vibes of this dimension
You are seriously everything
Yet nothing to me
It’s unexplainable
This becoming
Of oneness
This present moment bliss
You complement the mystery
Of who I am
There’s a knowing
That existed before this time
And the closer
We are
The clearer the vision
Of yesterday’s love
A familiar feeling
Yet, an unexplainable
Bliss
In our relationship
I was trying to be God
I wanted to breathe life into your soul
Correct all your flaws
Shape and mold you into the man
I deemed perfect for me
I was obsessed
Constantly thinking about
Who you should
And could not be
But who was I
To judge
Who was I
To criticize
And attempt to recreate
God’s divine masterpiece
Who was I
That I could not accept
You
The man who was created
With no imperfections
But was born
Perfect
Whole
And complete
I was trying to be God
I couldn’t love you
Because I was living in the context of me
1 in 4 women have experienced rape or attempted rape during their lifetimes, according to several national U.S. surveys. *MeToo Movement
So what I went to your house at 1:00 in the morning
So what I traveled from Brooklyn to Queens
Because I believed you when you said all we gonna do is watch a little TV
So what I felt comfortable in your space and fell asleep on your sheets
And so what, I only knew you for about two weeks
Still I didn’t give you permission to fu<k with my sh!t
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So what I believed in your silky smooth words
That was hot enough to melt my heart and put my trust in you
So what I believed I would be safe in your space
Because of all the hours we spent texting on the phone
So what my stupidity got the best of me
And I was seduced by your charm rather than your sincerity
Still I didn’t give you permission to fu<k with my sh!t
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Did it make you more of a man to startle me in my sleep
Because you experienced a rise between your thighs
Did it make you more of a man
To ignore the tears streaming in my cries
Did it make you more of a man
To take what God blessed as mines
Will if it did
I’m sorry for denying you the diamonds between my thighs
Because I didn’t know it was my duty to give up the booty
Still I didn’t give you permission to fu<k with my sh!t
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So what I went to your house at 1:00 in the morning
Does that fact acquit you of your sin
Does time make it okay for you to fu<k with my stuff
And expect me to keep it on the hush hush
Does my gullibility make you the victim and me the villain
Well if it does, I’m sorry for hurting you
For wounding your manhood because I was misunderstood
I sorry for being the B!tch that wouldn’t willingly except your golden d!ck
Next time , just leave my sh!t alone
We have always been in this moment together
You have made me happy in many life times
And I love living it over and over again
Just like the first time
We are all uniquely different
But the heart of who we are
As cosmic beings is the same
We all share the same story
We all want to feel we matter
We all want to feel a sense of belonging
And we all want to be loved
I believe
When we are vulnerable
About who we are
And what we want
We can heal
And transform
Ourselves
And others
Transcending
To a higher state
Of consciousness
