I can honestly say that I am afraid of people. My fear of what other people think has sometimes stopped me from speaking my truth, living my truth and being authentically me.
And at this point in my life, I am sick and tired of worrying about what other people think. My fearful obsession of other people has created a reality for me that isn’t even mines. I am literally living in someone else’s box. I can’t step beyond the borders because I‘m afraid of being judged, criticized and shamed for making a mistake.
Now what kind of life is that-
It isn’t much of a life.
So, how do I get over this fear? How do I stop shrinking in the presence of others?
Will Smith once said in an interview, there is a redemptive power in making a choice… Just decide what it’s going to be, who you’re to be and how you’re going to do it and the Universe will move out your way.
Mahatma Ghandi so eloquently said, “Your beliefs become your thoughts. Your thoughts become your words. Your words become your actions.”
I realized I must make a conscious choice to believe something different. Other people’s opinion of me does not have to become my reality (-Les Brown).
And when I really think about the fear I experience, I realize it isn’t real. It is a story I am telling myself based on what I think people are going to say. I talk myself out of doing what I know I should do, because of these false narratives.
Intellectually I know fear is just False Evidence Appearing Real. I mean I’ve heard the acronym more times than I can count.
It’s funny how you know the right thing to do but you don’t always apply what you know. Sometimes you just get caught up in the bullshit of life and must find your way back. I just need to find my way back; this fear is just a temporary thing.
Before Sodom was destroyed an old man visited the town. He walked around trying to encourage the people to change their ways but not a soul would listen.
So, he decided to make a sign. In big bold letters he wrote the word “Repent.” He carried the sign day and night but again the people refused to listen.
So, he decided to take a more drastic approach. He ran up and down the streets yelling, “Repent! Repent! What you’re doing is wrong! If you don’t stop, you will die!” Again no one listened. Yet, he didn’t stop. He kept on running and yelling, “Repent!”
Finally, a local man stopped him on the street and asked, “Can’t you see no one is listening.”
The old man replied, ” Yes, I know.”
Confused the local man asked, “So, why on earth do you keep yelling?”
“At first I tried to change the people, now I run up and down the streets yelling so they don’t change me.”
In Bushwick, Brooklyn there is a street my grandmother labeled as “Funky Broadway.” I’ve never understood why she chose the word “funky” until I experienced Broadway for myself.
The street has a very musty and unpleasant smell. One could say it is because of the men and women that hang around the meth-clinic, who unapologetically leave their garbage and bodily waste on the street.
But cosmically speaking the stench is in the air because the people are spiritually dead. In the spiritual realm they are the Walking Dead. These beautiful souls are walking around aimlessly unaware of their light and cosmic purpose. Their consciousness has been hijacked. Hence, they have unconsciously separated themselves from their oneness with God. Yet, it is not entirely their fault.
Truth is our subconscious mind is being controlled and our beliefs are being shaped. We are led to believe sex and drugs are liberating. We are led to believe we must look and behave a certain way to be loved. We are led to believe that if our lives don’t look like “This”, we are failures. We are led to believe that competition instead of cooperation leads to success.
Essentially what the programming wants us to believe is that we are limited and fragmented beings. That we must do something outside of ourselves to be complete.
Unfortunately, we unconsciously listen to the programming and we fill our lives with clothes, cars, relationships, food, social media likes stuff and more stuff. Problem is when we get these things; we are still not fulfilled. So, we want something more or something better.
Hence, a continuous cycle of unhappiness is perpetuated in our lives. We get caught in the Matrix of life. We become the Walking Dead because we do not know why we are doing what we are doing, even though we think we do.
We become human doings instead of human beings. We are constantly trying to do or have something so we can be something.
However, as human beings, we are given free will. Free will allows us to make conscious choices. And we can choose to live in oneness with God.
Within the realm of oneness, we become aware that we are not limited, fragmented beings but are expansive beings with unlimited potential.
This connection with the cosmic vibration of God allows us to remember that we are the happiness we seek. That we are the love we seek. That we are the wealth we seek.
This remembering frees us from the control of the Matrix. Hence, we are not easily manipulated by the programming. We make conscious decisions about how we want to live our lives, and we understand why we are doing what we do. Our lives become shaped by our cosmic purpose.
Because we must still live within the constructs of the Matrix, it is important that we make time for spiritual self-care. Prayer, meditation, and connection allows us to stay grounded in oneness. It is the source of our happiness and spiritual well-being.
Prayer is a very personal experience between the person praying and the Divine Father. It is a gift he has given to us so we can invoke his presence for guidance, protection, and, healing. It is how we activate and become aware of our cosmic connection to life force energy.
There is no right or wrong way to pray. There is no specific time of day you need to pray. My personal advice to you is, pray whenever you need to speak or be surrounded by the love of God.
Prayer is our way of speaking to God and meditation is our way of listening and receiving his cosmic blessings. As we meditate, we connect to universal love, wisdom, and healing. This energy cleanses our spiritual bodies of low vibrational beliefs and emotions. Our cosmic auras become brighter because we are vibrating at a higher spiritual frequency.
Before you say, I can’t meditate. I want to say to you, meditation takes practice. The more you practice, the better you will become. Below is a simple meditation you can try using your five senses.
🧘🏽♀️Begin by focusing your attention on a beautiful person or place. Think about the following questions as you close your eyes and breathe.
🔹What do you see? 🔹 How do you feel? 🔹What do you smell? 🔹 What sounds do you hear? 🔹 What do you taste? 🔹 What sensations do you feel in your body? 🔹 Where do you feel these sensations?
Be present, breathe and just be.🌻
We are all at different levels in our journey, so it behooves us to surround ourselves with like-minded people. Being in community with one another allows us to connect, learn, and grow as conscious beings.
The great thing about living in oneness with God is you will attract the people you need in your life. Just wait patiently for their arrival.
At some point in our lives we have all been spiritually dead. Some of us have awakened and some of us are still walking around aimlessly trying to figure life out and that’s ok. Where you are on your journey, is where you are supposed to be. Just don’t stay in one place too long. Ascension and transcendence should be your goal.
Ascension is connecting to your higher self. And as you are moving upward in consciousness you are transcending or becoming more enlightened.
Within the realm of oneness, you are given the tools and strategies you need to keep yourself grounded in the light and free of the Matrix. Simply be willing to be guided.
How will your life change when you become spiritually awakened?
How will you stay connected to God?
How often will you pray and meditate?
What kind of people will you attract because you are living a cosmic life?