I Walked On Water

Today, God gave me one of the greatest insights I’ve had in a long time.

I cried. Not sad tears, but the kind of tears that come when something touches your spirit so deeply that you know it is meant for you.

I’m not even sure I can fully articulate what God revealed to me, so I’m just going to write and allow the message to come through.

This morning, I woke up and told myself, Don’t pick up your phone and go straight to TikTok.

Instead, I decided to listen to Patrice Washington’s podcast. I honestly couldn’t tell you exactly what was said. I just know something I heard reminded me of a dream I had.

And suddenly, I understood the dream differently.

In the dream, I was walking on water.

But here’s the crazy part—I didn’t realize I was walking on water.

I was too busy watching these children swimming underneath the water. Their eyes were wide open, and they were gliding through the water like little fish.

I remember looking at them and thinking, I wish I could do that.

And then it hit me.

Anaya… YOU ARE WALKING ON WATER.

I was so focused on what they could do that I couldn’t see the miracle happening underneath my own feet.

I was doing the impossible.

I was walking on water like Jesus, yet I couldn’t recognize the miracle because I was focused on what I thought I couldn’t do.

Whew.

And that is when I felt God speaking to me:

Anaya, you are here for a reason. You have a purpose. Stop doubting the vision I have given you for your life. Trust Me.

And then I remembered the second part of the dream.

When I finally reached the shore, I realized I didn’t have any shoes on.

I was barefoot.

Immediately, my mind went to what was missing.

Where are my shoes? Why don’t I have shoes? I need to go back and get my shoes.

Then I realized I didn’t have my wallet either.

No wallet. No money.

And once again, I understood the message.

Anaya, you just walked on water, and now you’re worried about shoes and money?

God spoke. He said trust in me. SEE ME!  And I will give you the desires of your heart, and you will do the impossible!

God can bring us through things we never thought we would survive. Doors can open that we couldn’t have opened ourselves. We can accomplish things we once prayed to be able to do.

And somehow, we still find ourselves worrying about what we don’t have.

We look at someone else’s gifts and forget our own.

We look at what hasn’t happened and forget everything that has.

We focus on the shoes and the wallet while completely forgetting that we just walked on water.

The message I received was simple:

If I gave you the ability to walk on water, imagine what else I can do through you.

That broke something open inside of me.

Maybe faith isn’t always about waiting for the miracle.

Maybe sometimes faith is recognizing the miracle that is already happening.

Maybe some of us are asking God, When is my blessing coming? while standing right in the middle of the blessing.

Maybe the shift isn’t that we need more.

Maybe we need new eyes to see what is already here.

Today, I am choosing to stop focusing so much on what I don’t have, what I haven’t accomplished, and what I think I can’t do.

I am choosing to see differently.

I am choosing faith.

I am choosing to trust God’s vision for my life, even when I can’t see the whole picture.

And most importantly, I am choosing to recognize the miracle that I already am.

So I want to leave you with these questions:

What miracle is already happening in your life that you haven’t stopped long enough to recognize?

What are you so focused on not having that you’ve forgotten how far God has already brought you?

And how would your life change if you truly trusted God’s vision for your life?

Stop looking at your bare feet long enough to realize…

Baby, you just walked on water.

Why Is This Happening to Me? Surviving A Tower Moment

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There was a moment in my life where I didn’t question what was possible for myself and my life. I wanted something, did what was necessary to get it. I didn’t worry about how or when it was going to happen. I just knew that it was. It seemed like anything was within my reach, if I just reached out and grabbed it. But that’s not where I am now.

Now, it seems like I am living in a state of impossibility. I want something, I do what is necessary to get what I want, but now I’m trying to control when and how it’s going to happen. I have lost patience and find myself spiraling down a rabbit hole of fear, worry, and negativity. I ask myself, how did I get here? When did I start believing in impossibility instead of possibility?

Looking back, I realize it started the moment my life began to fall apart all at once. It was my “Tower” moment. I was at a high and now I was at a low, and I couldn’t believe all of this was happening to me. My brother was tragically murdered, I was let go from my job, and I was having problems in my marriage. This series of unfortunate events sent me down a dark path of depression.

This moment in my life left me wounded, insecure, and feeling like I had no control over my life. Despite making significant changes in my life to heal, I am still allowing the scars to control my life. I am still living in the shadow of my “Tower” moment.

So now, where do I go from here? I believe it’s about taking control of my life and not allowing the wounds of my past to control who I am to become. The second thing I must do is understand that I can’t do anything alone. I control what I can, but I must also allow the Universe and my spirit guides to do their perfect work. I realize living in possibility means believing in something far greater than myself. It is beyond what my human mind can comprehend. It is a knowing that everything is going to work out in divine time.

I have come to understand that there might be “Tower” moments that happen while living in a space between wanting something and receiving it. I’ve learning not to be consumed emotionally by these moments because they will take me down a dark path, prolonging what I really want. Instead, I’m utilizing my spiritual tools like prayer and meditation to keep me on an auspicious path.

This is the space I want to live and thrive. Though I understand it won’t be easy, I am determined to find my way. I am committed to rediscovering faith in the realm of possibilities.