Cosmic Love

They synergy of our energy

Is breath-taking

I stand in awe of who we’ve become

It’s a way of being that is beyond

The vibes of this dimension

You are seriously everything

Yet nothing to me

It’s unexplainable

This becoming

Of oneness

This present moment bliss

You complement the mystery

Of who I am

There’s a knowing

That existed before this time

And the closer

We are

The clearer the vision

Of yesterday’s love

A familiar feeling

Yet, an unexplainable

Bliss

You Are My Biggest Fear

I can honestly say that I am afraid of people. My fear of what other people think has sometimes stopped me from speaking my truth, living my truth and being authentically me.

And at this point in my life, I am sick and tired of worrying about what other people think. My fearful obsession of other people has created a reality for me that isn’t even mines. I am literally living in someone else’s box. I can’t step beyond the borders because I‘m afraid of being judged, criticized and shamed for making a mistake.

 Now what kind of life is that-

It isn’t much of a life.

So, how do I get over this fear? How do I stop shrinking in the presence of others?

Will Smith once said in an interview, there is a redemptive power in making a choice… Just decide what it’s going to be, who you’re to be and how you’re going to do it and the Universe will move out your way.

Mahatma Ghandi so eloquently said, “Your beliefs become your thoughts. Your thoughts become your words. Your words become your actions.”

I realized I must make a conscious choice to believe something different. Other people’s opinion of me does not have to become my reality (-Les Brown). 

And when I really think about the fear I experience, I realize it isn’t real. It is a story I am telling myself based on what I think people are going to say. I talk myself out of doing what I know I should do, because of these false narratives.

Intellectually I know fear is just False Evidence Appearing Real. I mean I’ve heard the acronym more times than I can count.

It’s funny how you know the right thing to do but you don’t always apply what you know. Sometimes you just get caught up in the bullshit of life and must find your way back. I just need to find my way back; this fear is just a temporary thing.

The Parable of the Man in the Hole

There was a man walking along a country road and suddenly he fell into a dark, dusty hole. He immediately picked himself up and begin yelling for help. After an hour of yelling, he gave up. He sat in the dark waiting for someone to save him. After several days, someone heard him moaning, and helped him out of the hole.

Another man was walking along the same road and he too suddenly fell into the dark, dusty hole. He immediately picked himself up and begin yelling for help. When no one heard his cries, he got on his hands and knees and begin feeling around the dirty cave floor for something he could use to get himself out. To his surprise he found a flashlight. The light illuminated the hole, and he was able to find a small crawl space which led him back to the surface.

Cosmic Questions

When life hits you hard do you wait for someone to save you or do you save yourself?

How long do you stay down when experiencing a setback?

When you experience a setback, what resources do you rely on to create new opportunities?

Parable of the Old Man

Before Sodom was destroyed an old man visited the town. He walked around trying to encourage the people to change their ways but not a soul would listen.

So, he decided to make a sign. In big bold letters he wrote the word “Repent.” He carried the sign day and night but again the people refused to listen.

So, he decided to take a more drastic approach. He ran up and down the streets yelling, “Repent! Repent! What you’re doing is wrong! If you don’t stop, you will die!” Again no one listened. Yet, he didn’t stop. He kept on running and yelling, “Repent!”

Finally, a local man stopped him on the street and asked, “Can’t you see no one is listening.”

The old man replied, ” Yes, I know.”

Confused the local man asked, “So, why on earth do you keep yelling?”

“At first I tried to change the people, now I run up and down the streets yelling so they don’t change me.”

A New Way Being

Have you ever had a moment in your life, where everything you touched turned to gold?

My magical year was 2009-2010. I wish I could go back and relive that year but unfortunately, I can’t.

Living in the past is not doing anything for me in the present. I realize, I will stay disappointed if I continuously try to recreate a moment that is simply a memory.

I now understand that I should use the memory as motivation and inspiration to create a new way of being in the NOW.

So. to stay present to my light, I’ve decided to create a new possibility for myself and my life as I approach my 47th birthday.

Written with power and passion.

Spoken with power and passion.

I am the possibility of experiencing joy in every moment of my life.

Namaste🙏🏽

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In our relationship

I was trying to be God

I wanted to breathe life into your soul

Correct all your flaws

Shape and mold you into the man

I deemed perfect for me

I was obsessed

Constantly thinking about

Who you should

And could not be

But who was I

To judge

Who was I

To criticize

And attempt to recreate

God’s divine masterpiece

Who was I

That I could not accept

You

The man who was created

With no imperfections

But was born

Perfect

Whole

And complete

I was trying to be God

I couldn’t love you

Because I was living in the context of me

Leave My Sh!t Alone

1 in 4 women have experienced rape or attempted rape during their lifetimes, according to several national U.S. surveys. *MeToo Movement

So what I went to your house at 1:00 in the morning

So what I traveled from Brooklyn to Queens

Because I believed you when you said all we gonna do is watch a little TV

So what I felt comfortable in your space and fell asleep on your sheets

And so what, I only knew you for about two weeks

Still I didn’t give you permission to fu<k with my sh!t

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So what I believed in your silky smooth words

That was hot enough to melt my heart and put my trust in you

So what I believed I would be safe in your space

Because of all the hours we spent texting on the phone

So what my stupidity got the best of me

And I was seduced by your charm rather than your sincerity

Still I didn’t give you permission to fu<k with my sh!t

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Did it make you more of a man to startle me in my sleep

Because you experienced a rise between your thighs

Did it make you more of a man

To ignore the tears streaming in my cries

Did it make you more of a man

To take what God blessed as mines

Will if it did

I’m sorry for denying you the diamonds between my thighs

Because I didn’t know it was my duty to give up the booty

Still I didn’t give you permission to fu<k with my sh!t

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So what I went to your house at 1:00 in the morning

Does that fact acquit you of your sin

Does time make it okay for you to fu<k with my stuff

And expect me to keep it on the hush hush

Does my gullibility make you the victim and me the villain

Well if it does, I’m sorry for hurting you

For wounding your manhood because I was misunderstood

I sorry for being the B!tch that wouldn’t willingly except your golden d!ck

Next time , just leave my sh!t alone