Dream Lover

I had this wonderful dream about you

It was about us being together

enjoying the moment

The now

Not thinking of the future

or

Focusing on what could be on should be

But what is

And in that moment

I accepted my present

Embraced my present

Laughed and smiled with my present

Cuddled with my present

I was totally in the moment with you

An Attitude of Gratitude

I remember saying the same simple prayer as a child before I went to sleep, “ God I thank you for my mother, grandmother, little sister and brothers.  I thank you for the clothes on my back.  The food you put on the table and the roof over my head. Amen” 

As a little girl, I was grateful for my family, the gift of being alive, taken care of and loved by God. But somewhere along my path, life, food, shelter and love was not enough, I wanted more. I couldn’t appreciate what was in front of me because my attention was focused on what I lacked.

There is a quote I love by Deepak Chopra,  “The past is history, the future a mystery and this moment is a gift. That is why it is called the present.”  Every moment that I am alive and breathing is a blessing. Life is God’s gift. The present moment is God’s gift.

So I’ve decided to be grateful for the present moment because it is the “space” where I can appreciate God’s blessings.

Inspired by Don Miguel Ruiz’s book, The Four Agreements, I decided to create my own agreements. It is my goal to be mindful of each agreement for thirty days so that they will become an unconscious habit.

First Agreement: The most important person in my life is the person I am talking to right now.  I will not judge, criticize or complain about what they are saying or doing.  I will send them loving energy and be grateful for just being in their presence. I will not think about the fifty million things I need to be doing. I will not check my email or social media. I will give that person my complete attention. 

Second Agreement: The most important thing that I am doing is right now.  I will not complain or wish that I were doing something other than what I am doing.  I will love, play and simply enjoy the moment.

Third Agreement: The most important action I can take in this moment is one of self-love.  I will love myself even when I make a mistake. I will focus on the positive. I will celebrate my accomplishments big or small. I will be grateful for being me.

The Way

Change is going to come

And when she shows up

It behooves you

To welcome her with open arms

She comes for a reason

So follow her

Even though you can’t see her vision

Know that her endings gift wisdom

And her beginnings gift you freedom

The freedom to

Create the possibility

Of Your Truth

The light to find

The I am

In YOU

Cosmic Love

They synergy of our energy

Is breath-taking

I stand in awe of who we’ve become

It’s a way of being that is beyond

The vibes of this dimension

You are seriously everything

Yet nothing to me

It’s unexplainable

This becoming

Of oneness

This present moment bliss

You complement the mystery

Of who I am

There’s a knowing

That existed before this time

And the closer

We are

The clearer the vision

Of yesterday’s love

A familiar feeling

Yet, an unexplainable

Bliss

You Are My Biggest Fear

I can honestly say that I am afraid of people. My fear of what other people think has sometimes stopped me from speaking my truth, living my truth and being authentically me.

And at this point in my life, I am sick and tired of worrying about what other people think. My fearful obsession of other people has created a reality for me that isn’t even mines. I am literally living in someone else’s box. I can’t step beyond the borders because I‘m afraid of being judged, criticized and shamed for making a mistake.

 Now what kind of life is that-

It isn’t much of a life.

So, how do I get over this fear? How do I stop shrinking in the presence of others?

Will Smith once said in an interview, there is a redemptive power in making a choice… Just decide what it’s going to be, who you’re to be and how you’re going to do it and the Universe will move out your way.

Mahatma Ghandi so eloquently said, “Your beliefs become your thoughts. Your thoughts become your words. Your words become your actions.”

I realized I must make a conscious choice to believe something different. Other people’s opinion of me does not have to become my reality (-Les Brown). 

And when I really think about the fear I experience, I realize it isn’t real. It is a story I am telling myself based on what I think people are going to say. I talk myself out of doing what I know I should do, because of these false narratives.

Intellectually I know fear is just False Evidence Appearing Real. I mean I’ve heard the acronym more times than I can count.

It’s funny how you know the right thing to do but you don’t always apply what you know. Sometimes you just get caught up in the bullshit of life and must find your way back. I just need to find my way back; this fear is just a temporary thing.

The Parable of the Man in the Hole

There was a man walking along a country road and suddenly he fell into a dark, dusty hole. He immediately picked himself up and begin yelling for help. After an hour of yelling, he gave up. He sat in the dark waiting for someone to save him. After several days, someone heard him moaning, and helped him out of the hole.

Another man was walking along the same road and he too suddenly fell into the dark, dusty hole. He immediately picked himself up and begin yelling for help. When no one heard his cries, he got on his hands and knees and begin feeling around the dirty cave floor for something he could use to get himself out. To his surprise he found a flashlight. The light illuminated the hole, and he was able to find a small crawl space which led him back to the surface.

Cosmic Questions

When life hits you hard do you wait for someone to save you or do you save yourself?

How long do you stay down when experiencing a setback?

When you experience a setback, what resources do you rely on to create new opportunities?